Newbie in the international mission

When I first joined an international mission, I thought I knew what to expect as I had few colleagues and friends living in mission life. Security briefings, long hours, a mix of cultures, and the thrill of working on something bigger than myself. What I didn’t realize was how profoundly mission life would shape not only my career but also mold my character cutting off some parts and adding on the other.

Living In The Barriered Compounds
Mission life often means living behind high walls and razor wire. In Iraq and Afghanistan, I remember the constant hum of generators, the familiar routine of checkpoints, and the daily reminder that security dictated every decision — even something as simple as going to the market. South Sudan was no different: curfews, movement restrictions, and armored vehicles became part of the rhythm of life. These limitations could feel suffocating, yet they also taught me adaptability. I learned to find freedom in small rituals — a walk around the compound, a conversation over coffee, or an evening of journaling.

The Human Connections
Despite the restrictions, mission life is rich in human connection. Working with colleagues from different countries, I witnessed a mix of languages, traditions, and worldviews. In Afghanistan, I remember late-night discussions over tea with local staff who shared stories of resilience that humbled me. In South Sudan, laughter with colleagues during power outages reminded me that even in the darkest moments, solidarity can keep spirits alive. These friendships, forged under pressure, often outlast the missions themselves.

The Emotional Rollercoaster
Not a single orientation session prepares you for the emotional intensity of mission life. There are days when the weight of responsibility feels overwhelming — when assignments for conducting highly sensitive yet needed workshops with the local community that is busy with surviving through their daily poverty challenges reach your mail inbox and you question whether your work makes a difference. There are also days filled with pride and joy, when a successful training, a peaceful election day, or a small breakthrough reminds you why you chose this path. Over time, I learned to embrace both: the struggle and the reward. They are inseparable parts of the mission experience.

Purpose in the Midst of Hardship
For me, the hardest part of mission life was not the long hours or the heat — it was the constant distance from family and the world I once considered “normal.” Celebrations missed, relationships stretched, and a sense of living between two worlds. Yet, the sense of purpose sustained me. Knowing that my work contributed, however modestly, to strengthening institutions, supporting elections, or giving communities a voice made the sacrifices meaningful.

Lessons Learned
Looking back, mission life taught me resilience, patience, and perspective. It showed me that even in hardship, growth is possible. It reminded me that impact is not always visible immediately, but small steps — a meeting, a training, a partnership — accumulate over time into something larger. Most importantly, it taught me that mission life is not only about serving others but also about transforming ourselves.

Mission life is not easy — but it is unforgettable. It leaves you with scars, yes, but also with stories, friendships, and a deeper sense of purpose.